Just one of those days

I'm trying to get better but...sometimes it gets so hard I just wanna give up...

• I suffer PTSD or dissociation
• I have depression and anxiety
• I drink my problems away
• I cut and scratch myself until I draw blood self-harm
• I don't eat as much as I used to
• I don't sleep much because of the PTSD and anxiety
• I often feel worthless and want to end my life
• I have trust issues with people
• I'm failing classes and have to retake them in order to graduate on time
• I quit my extracurricular activities because my depression made me detach from others
• I hate my body
• Sometimes I wonder why in the hell I was even born
•  I hate my life on frequent basis
• I am a damaged person who is incapable of love
• I'm a freak