My relationship status

Ashley and I are back together...again for the fourth or fifth time. Who knows how long we'll last this time?
She finally texted me and apologized for everything.
Answers to my questions:
YES she indeed cheated on me and she regrets it
She only did it to protect me from getting hurt (too late for that I might add)
And apparently this dickmunch was crazy and abusive. But don't worry that dick will get what's coming to him one way or another >:)

As for my relationship: it's complicated
I still spy on dickhead's post on Facebook. He still talks about being with MY Ashley and apparently they're engaged! WHAT THE FUCK????!!!!!!! After seeing that, I checked her relationship status and it said in a relationship with me plus she said the fucker was crazy. Honestly I don't know what to believe at this point. I wanna trust her but she lied to me before what makes me think she isn't doing it again.

Hello Readers

Sorry I haven't been posting in a couple months.
Been up to my eyeballs in homework, job hunting, and scholarship applying
so i haven't exactly had time to vent out my pain and anger.

I think i'm just self-torturing myself at this point

It's been months since I found out my ex cheated on me with a guy...and I'm still pissed. I think i'm just self-torturing myself at this point since I still read her and her boyfriend's Facebook posts to one another. Post after post...God he acts like he knows her better than I do! WTF??!!!! Such a dickhead! He doesn't even know about her past exes...relationship already starting out with hidden truths. Ha! I bet he'd be really surprised if he saw me!

Even though we're broken up, i still deserve some fucking closure damn it! she won't even contact me or reply to my messages so she can explain to me exactly why she stitched up my previously broken heart just to rip it out, stomp on it and do the Mexican hat dance around it!

My family ruined Halloween for me!

Halloween is my favorite holiday. My family ruined it for me. My mom & little sister were so irritating! 

How my sister spoiled Halloween for me:

• kept asking why her singing always gives me a headache
• maybe cuz she fucking sucks!!!!
• asks why i don't like her and mom
• probably because the both of you are controlling anti-gay hypocrites who get on my nerves & are so self-absorbed!!!!!!

How my mom spoiled Halloween for me:

• first she made cancel my Halloween plans-- i was told that my parents were goin out of town
• she changed her mind & stayed home and kept dragging me around to places [i cancelled my plans 4 nothing!!!!]

All i wanted to do was dress up and watch Halloween-themed and horror movies with my friends.

My "girlfriend"

Well, my girlfriend hasn't talked to me in weeks. She doesn't answer the phone when I call. She doesn't reply my texts. And she deleted her Facebook page so I can't find out what's goin on between us. I have no way of contacting her period. That is til I made a fake Facebook page. And here's what I found out:

• her relationship with "fake" boyfriend seemed very romantic and REAL when I saw their posts about/to one another
• also this shit has been going on since my birthday in January (so she's bn cheating on me for 10 months now!)
• the dude she's allegedly is last place compared to me! (as in he's not attractive---not even a little bit)
• also her Facebook page was never deleted...she BLOCKED me this entire time!!!!!!!!!
• she calls him the pet names she called me!

She doesn't even have the fucking gall to break up with me to my face! (Technically she's still my girl since she hasn't officially broken up with me yet.)I had to find out this way by spying on her and underhandedly create a fake Facebook page! WHAT THE FUCK?!!!?!!!?!!!?!!!

    

I actually don't blame her. I hate the dude who stole her away from me!!!!!! I hate him more than I should hate her!

sister is self-centered

my little sister is so self-centered! my god she is so self-absorbed! So full of herself. my older half-brother [finally] came to visit the other day. my little sister straight up said "I'm your favorite little sister". WTH? When she was younger, she couldn't stand him! Hypocrite much? Then we started reminiscing about times we got free food (due to wrong orders) and she replied "I get free stuff cuz I'm cute". Geez what a giant-ass ego on that one. XP
  

My mom is such an anti-gay hypocrite!

My mom and I were having a convo about my friend, who's a transgender female. My mom turned up her nose in disgust and said "[LGBT] Girls and guys are so confused...God made you one way...they need to go to church and learn something." Wow, she says she's not anti-gay but that statement kinda sounds like it right?

Then, it was National Coming Out day and I was hanging out with the P.R.I.D.E. club at their booth. They gave me a couple P.R.I.D.E. ribbon badges to celebrate. When my mom came to get me, she saw my pins and made me take them off. She's all like "I told you not to join that club" (oh yeah like she was gonna stop me from joining the one club where I could be accepted no matter what my sexuality is) so I lied and said I was checking out their booth. She replied, "It's [the club] weird."

OMFG! My mom is such an anti-gay hypocrite. She has a couple of gay cousins and she gets along with one of them and and they even work together. I honestly don't know what her problem is but obviously that means I won't be coming out of the closet to my family anytime soon or ever for that matter.