Entitled bitch

Yesterday was my sister's birthday...or as I can it "annual hell". My sister is so self-absorbed she decided to celebrate it a day early and kept claiming the 15th really was her birthday. My fucking god, narcissistic much? For her birthday, she wanted to go a two-day shopping spree with my mom.

One: whenever I ask to go to the mall, it's always "that's way out the way" but the day before her birthday you take the entitled bitch out to the mall without complaining.

Two: she was hogging the bathroom all night trying on her new clothes, taking selfies. To add, i bought her a door length mirror a few Christmases ago. looks like the mirror wasn't big enough for that giant ass ego of hers. news flash, little bitch you're not cute like you think you are. and your dumb selfies (she sticks her tongue out to the side or duck face) make you look sluttier than you already are.

i really tried not to choke the bitch out. I'm just glad I survived another year of this bullshit.

just a few more months of family [complete and utter] bullshit then i am getting the fuck outta here

Two sides to me

I discovered that there are two sides to me: one side that is compassionate and one side is bitchy and cruel.

Here's what happened:

My friends and I were sitting at the table. We were divided in two to three groups. Each group discussing a different random ass topic. My group were talking about the basic crap we do: sex, relationships, and boobs. The two groups to next us was like "Guys, what you're talking about is making Mary uncomfortable."

Two thoughts popped into my mind in an instant:

1) Oh, I'm sorry Mary.
2) Mary if you can't handle what we're discussing which by the way does not fucking concern you then you don't have to listen to what we're talking about or better yet fucking leave!

Fucking hell! Sometimes I wonder why do I still hang with these people. I mean if they can't handle my sexualized opinions, then fuck them then!

10 things I hate about you

Mom:

1. I hate the sound of your voice
2. I hate your crappy taste in music
3. I hate your face
4. I hate the way you (try to) control me
5. I hate your homphobia
6. I hate the way you gulp your drinks
7. I hate the smell of your breath
8. I hate your fashion sense
9. I hate your attitude
10. I hate how you're so loud
11. I hate how you're so judgmental

Sister:

1. I hate the way you smell
2. I hate it when you call me the N word all the time
3. I hate the sound of your voice
4. I hate your taste in friends
5. I hate your taste in generally anything
6. I hate that everything goes your way
7. I hate your taste in music
8. I hate it when you don't give my clothes back
9. I hate it when you leave the bathroom mess
10. I hate it when you use MY bathroom
11. I hate you in general

Dad:

1. I hate how you try to compare me to my sister
2. I hate how you favor my sister and brother over me
3. I hate how you blow up at everything little thing I do
4. I hate it when you keep asking if I even like black (African American) entertainment
5. I hate how you criticize me
6. I hate how you think I'm incapable of doing things
7. I hate how you treat like I'm some fragile little girl
8. I hate how you never let me do anything fun with my friends
9. I hate how disrespectful YOU are to ME
10. I hate it when you treat me like I'm a freak
11. I hate you in general

I know I said TEN things I hate but there's just so many things I hate about them (it's a long list)

Remember J?

You guys remember J or SATAN SPERM from "My worst enemy" post*?

I call him Junkless now. That bastard is at it...again!

He told campus security that I was stalking him and felt unsafe because my dad scared the shit outta him a couple years back.** I am NOT stalking that fat jackass. We just happened to be in the same areas of the school around the same time. Campus security looked at the surveillance cameras and realized it was indeed a "wrong place, wrong time situation". As if I would stalk him! I got better things to do.

If that jackass wants to bitch something to security, I'll give him something to bitch about!!!

I fucking swear I think he has a problem with me because I'm gay!

*For those who don't know, he basically lesbian slut-shamed me and my friends with rumors.
**At first, I was embarrassed by it. But looking back at it now, it was funny as hell and i should've recorded it xD

Favoritism part 2

I needed to go Wal-Mart for a new flash drive and micro SD card. My mom drive us and we are almost halfway there...then my dad calls saying come home, i can't handle this 13-year old girl on her period. Are you fucking kidding me?! The man honestly couldn't handle one little bitch for a fucking afternoon?! I fucking swear this family!!!!! For me, keep doing what you were doing and continue your business. But for the little bitch, drop everything you were doing and tend to her wishes!

Then after we get back home my dad is yelling at me and telling me to lose the attitude [on my face]. For starters, one I was wearing dark shades and two it was just my face.

so guess what I did for a whole hour...crying in my closet, hiding my anguish under a jacket while holding my Genie plush doll.

I didn't say more a couple sentences for the last 24 hours, I refuse to look my father in the eye...basically I shut out my family and the world since yesterday afternoon.

I am counting the days til I am finally free from this hell hole. 

sorry for not posting

I apologize for not posting. School work overload. Constant work. Haven't been able to get to a computer.

I seem to be doing this a lot.

I promise to do better.

Happy New Year

Happy Crappy New Year!

I hope everyone's New Years turns out better than mine. I have no resolutions or goals for this year. Cuz I know for a fact it's gonna suck like last year did with my mom and dad being unfair to me and my sister being a complete bitch!!!!