Better not seen or heard

I don't know how much more of this I can take. My parents tell me to let them know when my sister does shit or says shit outta line but they don't wanna hear when i do talk. Blogging is like the only place where i can vent my feelings. Family doesn't give a flying fuck about what i gotta say, i know my friends wouldn't understand, and i don't trust counselors. I just...ugh! i swear I am treated like a low-class citizen in this house! when im a full adult, I am moving far away from this personal Hell and never looking back---i'll only visit to get my birthday and Christmas presents that's it! I can't even be myself (my true bisexual and monster obsessed self) at home---I have to put on a fucking act! it's just ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do your research before taking a field trip

I took a field trip to Rock Springs. A serious letdown -_-
I thought it would be something like this:

But it was actually like that:
    
I was covered in dirt down to my knees and the tips of my shoes. The guy (let's call him the Warden) said we couldn't eat until everyone did the obstacle course. One chick refused and the rest of us said "If you don't do it, we will eat you" and she did it then. And when we were done, they said "Wash your hair for ticks!" What the fuck?!?! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lesson: ALWAYS do research on a place before you go there for a field trip or something!!!!!!!!!!!!

my sister dresses like a slut

My parents always put down my wardrobe but do they not see what my little 6th grade sister wears?! she wears booty shorts, tight ass shirts (sometimes see-through), and camel toe leggings. they actually let her go to school looking like that and i can't wear a mini skirt or black clothing! what the fuck?!?!? that's bullshit!!!!! 
    

Teachers and administrators are pushing it

These administrators are pushing it sooo far. At my school, the freshmen assistant principal bumped into me. i think it was on purpose cuz she didnt say excuse or sorry or anything and she could have easily walked around me from the position i was standing in and how much space there was. I swear i think they be wonderin "let's see how far we can push this girl til she snaps and then we can get her in trouble". fucking administrators!

   

As for teachers, when you are "trying to help me" how about you don't correct me, make me feel stupid, and actually help my ass with this fucking problem?!? Can't wait til i graduate then i never have to see these fuckers ever again!!!!
   

Hello Readers

Sorry I haven't been posting in a while.
I've been really busy that I haven't had time to post my pain/anger.
Don't worry I'll be posting as soon as I can
Because:
-man twat (J--my enemy) is going to the same college i am
-high school freshmen  about every one in my high school are a pain in my ass
-administrators are really starting to push it like im gonna go off X( 

Be an ass to me week

Turns out it's be an ass to me week
how do i know? well listen to this shit:

Wednesday (March 26):

• my sister gets all pissy with me
• my friends rather talk to my worst enemy than me
• my parents think i'm a horrible person
• i got a scholarship rejection letter

Thursday (March 27):

• i was working on two assignments 4rm this teacher's class (one from today and one 4rm yesterday tht i didnt finish) she ask me 4 my answer on today's assingment and i say "still working out on it" and she replies "well if you hadn't been working on other work...." BITCH! I'm working on what YOUR ASS gave me all right?! God! at first i thought she was an OK teacher i guess not! she's just like all the rest

It's getting really you know holding back my tears putting on a fake smile...i don't know what to do anymore :(

Apparently, I'm a horrible person

So my parents gave my sister and I a lecture about our unsisterly behavior. My dad was like "don't just get on her"(pointing at my little sister). I'm not gonna give the whole speech they gave us but my dad is pretty much saying I'm a horrible person. Well dad I already knew I was a horrible person I didn't need you to remind me and encourage it even further. My family is the reason I have certain issues now.


Because of my parents' opinion of me, these types of thoughts run through my head:

• I have no friends
• everyone hates me
• my girlfriend hates me too
• I didn't ask to be born
• why am I even alive?

Its just really hard living this kind of life every day for the last 12 years you know