I can't

It's getting harder and harder. The stress, the anxiety, the depression. It's almost becoming too much for me to handle anymore. This strong persona I show to everyone, I don't know how much longer I can keep it up. I've even contemplated going back to cutting myself again. Replacing my emotional pain with a physical one. Just waiting for the moment I decide "fuck it". Let the cold sharp metal dig into my skin. Tracing a crimson path on me.

Sometimes I just want it to stop and give up.