The "girlfriend"

You guys really like the "girlfriend" posts. I actually have an update on that. And no we're not back together.

Here's what happened:

Her mom and dad didn't like the fact that she liked girls (i.e. me). So her mom gave her a choice...lose all contact with me or get kicked out the house. She choose not to live on the streets by blocking me on Facebook and changing her number. So her family is what got between us. A year later of resentment towards her and finding myself, I work up the courage to contact her. She tells me the truth about our breakup/fallout and that she never meant to hurt me. And now we are just friends. She has another boyfriend who just happens to be homophobic and is pregnant with his kid and they are living together.

First off, why date a homophobic guy when you yourself are bisexual? Two if you loved me as much as I thought you did how come you didn't think to contact me? She moved out of her parents house...we could've easily gotten back together!

But whatever. she made her choice and i'm making mine. and besides the bitch held me back anyway. if we were still together, i would have stayed in this godforsaken town so i wouldn't have to leave her. more than anything i want to leave and i never would have accomplished that. but now i am actually leaving so out breakup was actually a good thing. i just wish it was a little less harsh way it happened.

My sexuality

As you all know (some of you probably don't) I like girls. My family doesn't know....except my little sister. And guess what she's doing that information? BLACKMAILING ME!!! She is blackmailing me with my sexuality by threatening to out me to the parents. We both know mom and dad would never accept me for liking girls. That's why she's using it against me. I can deal with her blackmailing me with this but she is also judging me and making me feel worse about my sexuality than I already do! 

Her responses:

• it's wrong
• you should just like guys otherwise mom and dad will be upset
• don't come out
• you eat pussy? you is a freak
• it's gross

well i'm fucking sorry! No scratch i'm not fucking sorry! you know why? cuz who I choose to love and fuck is none of your goddamn business! i don't make fun or judge you for who you to love! so don't do it to me!

Independence

Apparently my parents said I can't get a job when I transfer to a university next month.

First off, I should be my goddamn decision if I should get a job or not. Not theirs! I want to make some cash that way I won't have to beg them for it. I think the real reason they don't want me to get a job is the same reason they want to attend college closer to home...they don't want me to independent and leave. Cuz if that happens, I won't be their little bitch anymore meaning they won't be able to control me. Well boo moutherfucking hoo! I'm leaving far away from here and I'm gonna get a part-time job down there and earns some money because I never wanna come back home to their controlling asses ever!