My roommate

And here I thought I would stop posting once I moved into my new dorm room away from my family. I was straight up wrong! My roommate is an immature little shit!

First she would go out for parties and get tipsy (even though she's under age) all the time the first week of school.

Second she got needy. She desperately craved attention. Whenever I would ignore her to study or do homework she would throw random objects at me to get my attention. Even when I told her to quit it after the first time. She threw a pillow, a spoon, a wad of yarn, and a magnet at me!

Third she's messy. Her side of the room is always a wreck (worse than mine which is saying something cuz I'm usually a organized mess). And her stuff is usually on my side of the room.

Fourth she's narcissistic. She constantly talks about her fuck buddies, sex life, and how's she is better looking than me. Are fucking kidding me?!!

Fifth she's inconsiderate. I'm allergic to garlic and she orders pizza with garlic sauce even though she knows the smells makes me ill too. And always (loudly) Skyping people when I'm trying to work on homework and studying!

Ugh! A junior really shouldn't have to room with a freshman. I chose her but her profile said she was the opposite of what she is now. Even when we video chatted she did not appear this way. Fucking hell!!!

Low opinion

Nice to know my own dad has such a low opinion of me.

I was going to a spa. Dad asked where and I told him. He turned his face up at the name. He had heard rumors that it was shady like they had a back room for guys to fuck. I did my research. The Facebook reviews gave it a pretty decent score (and it was mostly women). I even asked my aunt who went there and she said it was okay. I tried to convince my parents that it was okay and they of course they didn't budge.

My dad said, "Fine. If your face ends up on Facebook, don't come crying to me."

Basically he called me a whore.

Wow, dad. Nice to know how you think of me. What he said can be taken different ways:

1. Calling his kid a whore
2. Being put on some type of revenge porn like a Lifetime movie and him not even caring

Just wow dad....that was a whole new low

Patriarch

I hate the patriarchy of the house!

1. I can't eat until my dad eats.
2. I can't have the last of something if he wants it.*

*My dad and I feuded....over hamburger buns. My mom made burgers for dinner. The amount of buns were limited. He wanted buns for his burgers and so did I. He told me to use bread slices. To me, bread is demeaning for a burger. (Don't ask me why. It's just how I am. Bread slices for sandwiches, buns for burgers.) I told him I wanted buns and he can use bread since I've seen him use bread slices for bread before. Here's how this conversation continued:

Dad: Who I am?

Me: Dad

Dad: What do I do?

Me: (i didn't answer)

dad: who buys the groceries?

me: (still no answer)

If he wants to get technical, mom buys the groceries not him. he fucking lucky i kept my mouth shut. otherwise that high fucking horse of his would get pretty motherfucking small!

Being my parent's bitch

I hate being my parent's bitch. They make me do everything around the house. 

1. Vacuum
2. put groceries away
3. dishes
4. trash

You know what my sister does? My sister does absolutely nothing! Does this asswipe even have a chore?! Everything gets done for her. My dad gets her trash from her room. My mom gets her laundry to take downstairs.

Just a week or two, then I am done being their little bitch. Maybe my sister will be their new bitch....not -_-

So unfair

My parents are so unfair to me! 

My dad gave my sister a Swiss army knife and not me! I have been asking for years for a Swiss army knife and I kept getting denied. My sister is a high school freshman and she gets one?! So fucking unfair! 
My mom is such a hypocritic! I'm not allowed to walk around the house in my bra. And my sister gets to walk around in hers?!!! WHAT THE FLYING FUCK?!!!!!

I fuck swear this family just ARGH!!!!!

The "girlfriend"

You guys really like the "girlfriend" posts. I actually have an update on that. And no we're not back together.

Here's what happened:

Her mom and dad didn't like the fact that she liked girls (i.e. me). So her mom gave her a choice...lose all contact with me or get kicked out the house. She choose not to live on the streets by blocking me on Facebook and changing her number. So her family is what got between us. A year later of resentment towards her and finding myself, I work up the courage to contact her. She tells me the truth about our breakup/fallout and that she never meant to hurt me. And now we are just friends. She has another boyfriend who just happens to be homophobic and is pregnant with his kid and they are living together.

First off, why date a homophobic guy when you yourself are bisexual? Two if you loved me as much as I thought you did how come you didn't think to contact me? She moved out of her parents house...we could've easily gotten back together!

But whatever. she made her choice and i'm making mine. and besides the bitch held me back anyway. if we were still together, i would have stayed in this godforsaken town so i wouldn't have to leave her. more than anything i want to leave and i never would have accomplished that. but now i am actually leaving so out breakup was actually a good thing. i just wish it was a little less harsh way it happened.

My sexuality

As you all know (some of you probably don't) I like girls. My family doesn't know....except my little sister. And guess what she's doing that information? BLACKMAILING ME!!! She is blackmailing me with my sexuality by threatening to out me to the parents. We both know mom and dad would never accept me for liking girls. That's why she's using it against me. I can deal with her blackmailing me with this but she is also judging me and making me feel worse about my sexuality than I already do! 

Her responses:

• it's wrong
• you should just like guys otherwise mom and dad will be upset
• don't come out
• you eat pussy? you is a freak
• it's gross

well i'm fucking sorry! No scratch i'm not fucking sorry! you know why? cuz who I choose to love and fuck is none of your goddamn business! i don't make fun or judge you for who you to love! so don't do it to me!

Independence

Apparently my parents said I can't get a job when I transfer to a university next month.

First off, I should be my goddamn decision if I should get a job or not. Not theirs! I want to make some cash that way I won't have to beg them for it. I think the real reason they don't want me to get a job is the same reason they want to attend college closer to home...they don't want me to independent and leave. Cuz if that happens, I won't be their little bitch anymore meaning they won't be able to control me. Well boo moutherfucking hoo! I'm leaving far away from here and I'm gonna get a part-time job down there and earns some money because I never wanna come back home to their controlling asses ever!

Just once is all I ask!

Just once can't I have my way! One time is all I ask! My family and I are on a one-day/one-night trip to my transfer school. The room offers two regular beds and one roll-away bed. I already called one of the regular beds...twice before we even left! And guess what happens...my mom decides to flip a coin for it and my sister gets the regular bed.

Here's what's shitting me:
1) My mom can't flip a coin to save her life
2) I have back problems
3) I'm about to start my you-don't-want-to-know-what
4) She didn't even want to come on this fucking trip!

I can't have my way for one day even when it's about me?! I fucking can't stand this family!

Just two more months...then it's finally over and I'm free. Hopefully I can last that long -_- xP

Spoiled sister

My sister is so spoiled! She wants an iPod touch because she can't access social media 24/7 through the iPhone she already has! An iPod touch is over $200 and she asks my mom to buy her one. My mom tells her the cost and you know what my sister says? She replies "I'm worth it."

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!!!!! Then she continues with "Aren't I a good person?" YOU HAVE GOT TO BE SHITTING ME!!!!!!!! I had to raise the money on my own when I bought my iPod and that shit was not easy damn it!

Sister and mirrors

My sister won't quit using my bathroom! I have told her countless times it's my bathroom and to ask permission to use it or don't use it at all! She constantly uses my bathroom mirror. What's fucked up is that I FUCKING BOUGHT HER A MIRROR FOR CHRISTMAS YEARS AGO! It's a full tenth mirror that you can hang on your door. USE YOUR OWN FUCKING MIRROR YOU EGOISTICAL BITCH! What, is the mirror not big enough for your fat narcissistic, ego-maniacal head with your ass to match?!!  

My day

Went to my (favorite) cousin's high school graduation today...what better way to start the day with criticism about how I look only 30 minutes after waking up

My dad was criticizing my hair saying my hair looks tow up (like a mess). Are you serious?! I just woke up fucker! Of course my hair looks messy! Fucking hell! Can't go one goddamn day without criticism about something! -_-

Continuing my day...graduation hasn't started yet so sister decided to pass the time Snapchatting. Here's the problem our phone company told us we used 90% of free internet data already and our parents said we can't use anymore outside the house. This bitch is snapchatting across from me! And my mom only catches me and starts fussing at me! What was I doing you ask? Texting my asshole of a mom a question since she was too far for me to ask directly!! Sister gets away with everything and I get yelled at.

Graduation started and ended. People rushing the door. Sister yelling next to my ear and I call her out on it. Guess what? Sister gets off unscathed as usual and I get hit in the arm by mom. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?!!!! SO FUCKING UNFAIR!!!

 

My life sucks part 2

My life sucks and I hate it!

My family (on my dad's side) is having a reunion. My dad told me to give him $163 by June 3rd. I just found out that $75 is registration and $88 is for the hotel (one night stay).

My dad is making me pay for EVERYONE! I would understand having to pay MY way to the reunion, but EVERYONE?!! Are you fucking kidding me?!!!!

I only make minimum wage damn it! I could pay for my community college tuition or the books at the most with that kind of money!!!

I hate this family!!!!

My life sucks part 1

My life sucks and I hate it!

My BFF wanted to hang out this weekend for a movie night and I tell okay at (insert date here) at noon. I have everything ready and I patiently wait for her arrival.

Still not here...

Still not here....

Didn't fucking show up!!!!!

I waited for over two hours, called twice, and sent five text messages. No reply and no explanation!! Are you fucking kidding me?!!! At least give me a goddamn heads up before you flake on me like that!!

Sister's weird convo

My sister has the weirdest conversations for an 8th grader.

Our rooms are separated by my bathroom so I can hear whatever goes in her room while I'm in the bathroom. She is having a convo with her friend over the phone. I didn't hear the whole convo but it was about her selfies. What I hear is "You can't say nothin. My tongue is sexy." Um...what the fuck?! That is not a convo a 14 year old should be having. At least not out loud. That is a texting type of convo not a verbal one.

Heartless Dad

What in the fuck is wrong with my dad?!

I saw a little girl crying for her mom in the middle of the road walking up and down my street. I got worried so I called 911 so someone could help her or at least check on her. My dad tells me to hang up the phone and never do that shit again.

Oh, okay..so next time this type of situation happens I'll just sit idly by and watch a little girl be miserable.

Like I said...just heartless. 

Entitled bitch

Yesterday was my sister's birthday...or as I can it "annual hell". My sister is so self-absorbed she decided to celebrate it a day early and kept claiming the 15th really was her birthday. My fucking god, narcissistic much? For her birthday, she wanted to go a two-day shopping spree with my mom.

One: whenever I ask to go to the mall, it's always "that's way out the way" but the day before her birthday you take the entitled bitch out to the mall without complaining.

Two: she was hogging the bathroom all night trying on her new clothes, taking selfies. To add, i bought her a door length mirror a few Christmases ago. looks like the mirror wasn't big enough for that giant ass ego of hers. news flash, little bitch you're not cute like you think you are. and your dumb selfies (she sticks her tongue out to the side or duck face) make you look sluttier than you already are.

i really tried not to choke the bitch out. I'm just glad I survived another year of this bullshit.

just a few more months of family [complete and utter] bullshit then i am getting the fuck outta here

Two sides to me

I discovered that there are two sides to me: one side that is compassionate and one side is bitchy and cruel.

Here's what happened:

My friends and I were sitting at the table. We were divided in two to three groups. Each group discussing a different random ass topic. My group were talking about the basic crap we do: sex, relationships, and boobs. The two groups to next us was like "Guys, what you're talking about is making Mary uncomfortable."

Two thoughts popped into my mind in an instant:

1) Oh, I'm sorry Mary.
2) Mary if you can't handle what we're discussing which by the way does not fucking concern you then you don't have to listen to what we're talking about or better yet fucking leave!

Fucking hell! Sometimes I wonder why do I still hang with these people. I mean if they can't handle my sexualized opinions, then fuck them then!

10 things I hate about you

Mom:

1. I hate the sound of your voice
2. I hate your crappy taste in music
3. I hate your face
4. I hate the way you (try to) control me
5. I hate your homphobia
6. I hate the way you gulp your drinks
7. I hate the smell of your breath
8. I hate your fashion sense
9. I hate your attitude
10. I hate how you're so loud
11. I hate how you're so judgmental

Sister:

1. I hate the way you smell
2. I hate it when you call me the N word all the time
3. I hate the sound of your voice
4. I hate your taste in friends
5. I hate your taste in generally anything
6. I hate that everything goes your way
7. I hate your taste in music
8. I hate it when you don't give my clothes back
9. I hate it when you leave the bathroom mess
10. I hate it when you use MY bathroom
11. I hate you in general

Dad:

1. I hate how you try to compare me to my sister
2. I hate how you favor my sister and brother over me
3. I hate how you blow up at everything little thing I do
4. I hate it when you keep asking if I even like black (African American) entertainment
5. I hate how you criticize me
6. I hate how you think I'm incapable of doing things
7. I hate how you treat like I'm some fragile little girl
8. I hate how you never let me do anything fun with my friends
9. I hate how disrespectful YOU are to ME
10. I hate it when you treat me like I'm a freak
11. I hate you in general

I know I said TEN things I hate but there's just so many things I hate about them (it's a long list)

Remember J?

You guys remember J or SATAN SPERM from "My worst enemy" post*?

I call him Junkless now. That bastard is at it...again!

He told campus security that I was stalking him and felt unsafe because my dad scared the shit outta him a couple years back.** I am NOT stalking that fat jackass. We just happened to be in the same areas of the school around the same time. Campus security looked at the surveillance cameras and realized it was indeed a "wrong place, wrong time situation". As if I would stalk him! I got better things to do.

If that jackass wants to bitch something to security, I'll give him something to bitch about!!!

I fucking swear I think he has a problem with me because I'm gay!

*For those who don't know, he basically lesbian slut-shamed me and my friends with rumors.
**At first, I was embarrassed by it. But looking back at it now, it was funny as hell and i should've recorded it xD

Favoritism part 2

I needed to go Wal-Mart for a new flash drive and micro SD card. My mom drive us and we are almost halfway there...then my dad calls saying come home, i can't handle this 13-year old girl on her period. Are you fucking kidding me?! The man honestly couldn't handle one little bitch for a fucking afternoon?! I fucking swear this family!!!!! For me, keep doing what you were doing and continue your business. But for the little bitch, drop everything you were doing and tend to her wishes!

Then after we get back home my dad is yelling at me and telling me to lose the attitude [on my face]. For starters, one I was wearing dark shades and two it was just my face.

so guess what I did for a whole hour...crying in my closet, hiding my anguish under a jacket while holding my Genie plush doll.

I didn't say more a couple sentences for the last 24 hours, I refuse to look my father in the eye...basically I shut out my family and the world since yesterday afternoon.

I am counting the days til I am finally free from this hell hole. 

sorry for not posting

I apologize for not posting. School work overload. Constant work. Haven't been able to get to a computer.

I seem to be doing this a lot.

I promise to do better.

Happy New Year

Happy Crappy New Year!

I hope everyone's New Years turns out better than mine. I have no resolutions or goals for this year. Cuz I know for a fact it's gonna suck like last year did with my mom and dad being unfair to me and my sister being a complete bitch!!!!