I think i'm just self-torturing myself at this point

It's been months since I found out my ex cheated on me with a guy...and I'm still pissed. I think i'm just self-torturing myself at this point since I still read her and her boyfriend's Facebook posts to one another. Post after post...God he acts like he knows her better than I do! WTF??!!!! Such a dickhead! He doesn't even know about her past exes...relationship already starting out with hidden truths. Ha! I bet he'd be really surprised if he saw me!

Even though we're broken up, i still deserve some fucking closure damn it! she won't even contact me or reply to my messages so she can explain to me exactly why she stitched up my previously broken heart just to rip it out, stomp on it and do the Mexican hat dance around it!

My family ruined Halloween for me!

Halloween is my favorite holiday. My family ruined it for me. My mom & little sister were so irritating! 

How my sister spoiled Halloween for me:

• kept asking why her singing always gives me a headache
• maybe cuz she fucking sucks!!!!
• asks why i don't like her and mom
• probably because the both of you are controlling anti-gay hypocrites who get on my nerves & are so self-absorbed!!!!!!

How my mom spoiled Halloween for me:

• first she made cancel my Halloween plans-- i was told that my parents were goin out of town
• she changed her mind & stayed home and kept dragging me around to places [i cancelled my plans 4 nothing!!!!]

All i wanted to do was dress up and watch Halloween-themed and horror movies with my friends.

My "girlfriend"

Well, my girlfriend hasn't talked to me in weeks. She doesn't answer the phone when I call. She doesn't reply my texts. And she deleted her Facebook page so I can't find out what's goin on between us. I have no way of contacting her period. That is til I made a fake Facebook page. And here's what I found out:

• her relationship with "fake" boyfriend seemed very romantic and REAL when I saw their posts about/to one another
• also this shit has been going on since my birthday in January (so she's bn cheating on me for 10 months now!)
• the dude she's allegedly is last place compared to me! (as in he's not attractive---not even a little bit)
• also her Facebook page was never deleted...she BLOCKED me this entire time!!!!!!!!!
• she calls him the pet names she called me!

She doesn't even have the fucking gall to break up with me to my face! (Technically she's still my girl since she hasn't officially broken up with me yet.)I had to find out this way by spying on her and underhandedly create a fake Facebook page! WHAT THE FUCK?!!!?!!!?!!!?!!!

    

I actually don't blame her. I hate the dude who stole her away from me!!!!!! I hate him more than I should hate her!

sister is self-centered

my little sister is so self-centered! my god she is so self-absorbed! So full of herself. my older half-brother [finally] came to visit the other day. my little sister straight up said "I'm your favorite little sister". WTH? When she was younger, she couldn't stand him! Hypocrite much? Then we started reminiscing about times we got free food (due to wrong orders) and she replied "I get free stuff cuz I'm cute". Geez what a giant-ass ego on that one. XP
  

My mom is such an anti-gay hypocrite!

My mom and I were having a convo about my friend, who's a transgender female. My mom turned up her nose in disgust and said "[LGBT] Girls and guys are so confused...God made you one way...they need to go to church and learn something." Wow, she says she's not anti-gay but that statement kinda sounds like it right?

Then, it was National Coming Out day and I was hanging out with the P.R.I.D.E. club at their booth. They gave me a couple P.R.I.D.E. ribbon badges to celebrate. When my mom came to get me, she saw my pins and made me take them off. She's all like "I told you not to join that club" (oh yeah like she was gonna stop me from joining the one club where I could be accepted no matter what my sexuality is) so I lied and said I was checking out their booth. She replied, "It's [the club] weird."

OMFG! My mom is such an anti-gay hypocrite. She has a couple of gay cousins and she gets along with one of them and and they even work together. I honestly don't know what her problem is but obviously that means I won't be coming out of the closet to my family anytime soon or ever for that matter.

My sister takes everything!

My little sister takes everything from me! I'm getting sick of it!!!!!!! She took my all-time favorite cereal, Count Chocula. I've always eaten it since I was a kid, she never cared for it before, I start eating it and she's like "Count Chocula? I want to have some now." What the fuck?! I swear she did that to spite me! She takes my clothes. Because of her, I don't have any sweatpants. Including my shirts that still fit me! As a kid, she took my toys. When she didn't take them, she destroyed them. Like my favorite rag doll, she drew all over the doll's face. That doll was irreplaceable because the store where I got it from stopped selling them all together. She took my jewelry and my nail polishes. She even took my room! As a baby, her room was downstairs and my room was upstairs. Then, when she got older (2 or 3 years old) I had to move in the next room over! Yeah--I had to move and she ended up getting the room with the bigger closet...MY ROOM! She also took my interests! I like anime, especially InuYasha and all of a sudden she's interested in it now when she didn't even know about anime! She took my look and style! She took my straight hair down look and my fashion sense for black lace, converse shoes, and faux leather jackets! She took my taste in music! She took my old mp3 player and refused to delete my already downloaded screamo music. She even took my mattress! We were getting new mattress, I chose the soft one because I get back pains but no I get stuck with the stiffly uncomfortable floral print one and she gets the nice one!

I'VE HAD IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Under-appreciated

my dad says i should appreciate them more by doing the dishes. what the fuck?! the only person who is under-appreciated is me! i do stuff around the house without being asked and do they notice? fuck no! they think i don't appreciate them? oh so all times i showed genuine gratitude was horse shit?! ugh! i can't wait to move out of this fucking house!!!!!!!!!!

silence

i try to make a convo with my family...keyword: TRY! apparently they don't wanna listen or give a rat's ass to care about what i have to say. the bullshit they put them every fucking day, it makes me wanna kick i fuckin wall in. i think it would be better if i just don't talk to them unless necessary. they probably be better off if i shut up for once so they won't have to pretend to ignore me.